God is Amazing

First, let me start off by saying God is so amazing. This was my first time going to UED VBS camp and wow, what a blessing it was. I been wanting to go for the past month and just praying about it but because of summer school, I wasn't too sure. I was able to talk to my professor and in the end, he allowed me to skip class and make up my in class essay another day. Thank you God for answering my prayers. Well on Wednesday, I drove up to Alpine Conference Center alone after class. Oh yeah, in the morning, one of my students who I was going to be with during VBS camp called me to see if I was coming. I was so happy to get a call from my student just so he can check up on me to see if I was really coming or not. That really made my day, and I was so happy. The drive was long but as I was driving up the mountain, I looked over to see the wonderful scenery. God created all this. He created the mountains, the oceans, everything in this world. I don't know what to say but man, God, you are so awesome. Well I arrived and unpacked my stuff in the cabin. It was dinner time and so, we ate. Well after that was service and we all went inside the chapel. What was so amazing was during praise, you see kids just praising God with all their hearts. Hands up in the air just singing their hearts out. I was so touched, so blessed to see how much they loved God. I felt that God's presence was there moving within everyone. Man it felt so amazing!!!! The theme of this camp was "Live Out Loud" by the way. It was so much fun just singing, and praising God. I looked around to see the kids just singing loudly and not caring what others around them thought. Man, praise was beautiful, seriously no words can describe how wonderful it was. Well during message, Pastor Howard spoke for us and the kids loved him. I've heard pastor Howard speak before and hes such an amazing preacher, hes so funny and can preach well too. During the message I saw, including my students, everyone just locked on to pastor Howard as he was speaking. Seriously, I think every kid there loved him and paid attention very well. Everyone got involved when pastor Howard would ask questions to the kids. Many kids would raise their hands to answer which I thought was great. After the message, we went back to our cabins. Just to let you know, theres a lot of mosquito's and well, we got invaded. Someone in our cabin forgot to close the door quickly and well, a big fat mosquito came inside our cabin and thats when all my kids went crazy mode. We all screamed so loud and came together in a circle because we got scared. I know, I'm a 20 year old screaming because of a mosquito how sad huh? Well we started laughing so hard and I forgot who, but one of the kids was brave enough to go run to his bag to get a bug repellent. Well guess what, that doesn't do anything but make things worse. As one of my kid's sprayed it, it got all over our eyes and inside our mouths so we started screaming even more. Yes, we were going even crazier. The mosquito kept flying away and we kept running. Well eventually, it hid from us to where, we couldn't even find it so we just gave up. Well, one of my kids got scared because he thought it went inside his mouth, oh boy, more craziness haha. The funny part was that, we actually slept pretty early. I got some good sleep. Of course we shared stuff and I did my qt before bed. Next day, pretty much the same, woke up small group and breakfast. Then we went to go worship and yet again, it was amazing. Another wonderful praise in the morning, how great it is to start your day just praising God like how we praised! OH MAN IT WAS SERIOUSLY SO AMAZING!!! Ok, I'm getting sleepy, well as the day went on, everything went great. It was our last night and our last message at night. Of course it went well and each group went up to do skits. One thing I really prayed throughout this VBS was that, when kids go back home, they wouldn't go back to their old selves but go home as a new person? I prayed that God would really use every single one of us, that when we go home, we wouldn't be the same person as before. I prayed that we would we all make a choice, a decision before this VBS ended. I really feel that these kids will do great things in life. Their young and just seeing them praising with their hearts out, I really believe their going to grow to become wonderful men/women of God. Their going to do great things in life, I just know it. Imagine, just seeing these kids praising and worshiping God like this at a young age, they have so much potential. As they get older and older, their faith will only grow stronger and stronger. As they continue to live for God, great things are to come. Through the messages and everything I saw and felt, I realized how much patience I need in God. Even though you may live a life always doing great things and nothing good comes your way, be patience. God will always reward you in time. All the good things you do in life but yet, you find that it some how hurts you, you have to stay strong. Yes there will be times in life where you do something good but it backfires on you and you get into some kind of trouble. Don't feel bad, don't feel discouraged, but trust God for he will remember. Pastor Howard talked about that his message about doing good things but that good thing turns out to be bad for you. Well now I'm so sleepy, my eyes are dying on me. Vbs overall was amazing like I said a million times. I loved it so much. I love my students and just seeing some there, I was so happy. Goodnight.

A lot of time has passed by since my last post. For a while, I been just cruising by just doing pretty much nothing. It seems as if I just wasted a lot of valuable time when I could've really been studying or reading the Bible. It seems each and everyday, I think about my future more and more. Still going to a community college I feel so damn useless. I hate the fact I'm going to a stupid community college and I can't wait till I'm out. Only 1 year left till I can transfer and as of right now, I have UCR in mind. I'm most likely going to get in. I'm now more motivated than ever to actually study and not waste so much time. All this time, I been going to class because I had too and I didn't give a crap about anything. I got lucky, got couple of A's and a B, but then again, they were easy except for accounting. For a couple of days, I been thinking so much about my future and about what I want to do. For the last couple days, I been seriously thinking about studying harder and trying to get into a better school. I realized that I'm so prideful, and that I care about what others think about me. I care about what people see in me and I don't want to look like a dumbass that went to some stupid school. I want to become successful, I want parents to see me as some good kid that is smart and has a bright future ahead. I don't want to look dumb and act dumb. I'm just sick and tired of everything. I'm determined more than ever to try hard and do well in school. I wish I can start over because right now, I'm so damn pumped up to study hard. If I do transfer to UCR then I go, but I also want to stay a year longer and try to raise up my GPA higher and get into a better school. I know I can do it if I try. I know I can make it if I put effort in. I'm writing this blog right now to remind myself when that when I go back to reread this blog entry, I can be reminded of this strong motivation that I have at this moment to study hard. There is this one thing I really want to start right now and risk a lot for. I'm jotting down idea's and hopefully with lots of prayer, I can hopefully come up with a business plan within couple months to push through and start it. Oh and about prayer and about my Christian life. Yes, its been a while since I been going to church and I feel I've progressed a lot. I feel much closer to God and I feel my faith has grown. This blog entry might sound like I'm some crazy prideful guy that only cares about success but really, its how I grew up that makes me want to succeed so bad. I don't want to fail because I've seen what failure can do. I know the pain it brings and how much damage it has on a family. As I think about my future, I'm going to do all I can and do the best I can to make SURE I SUCCEED AND HAVE A GREAT CHRIST CENTERED FAMILY. I see how important it is to have a Christ centered family. This has reminded me of how much I need God in my life and how important God is. In everything I do in my life, I want to really do it for the glory of God. I want to live each and every day of my life glorifying God with all my heart. He has done so much for me and I'm so thankful for everything I have. As I was writing my business plan, I was reminded of how AMAZING God is and how blessed I am to be saved. Its really hard to overcome my flesh and in result, I fall into temptations. I know deep inside me, I want to live a good life, a righteous life apart from the world. This world is so evil and its so easy to fall and be just like the worldly people. This isn't what I want, I don't want to be a Christian who is not any different from a worldly person. I know who I am. I'm a Christian, I'm a guy trying to fight the world and be different from the world. I want to live my life pleasing God not the world. The world teaches us that success is the way to go and that living the American dream is what life's about. Yes I want to succeed but not so that I can be rich but to be able to help others in need. Life is tough and always will be and that's how my life pretty much was. One thing I can say is I'm so blessed and I'm so happy to know that because of my mom, I'm a Christian. If it wasn't for her, then I would've probably never gone to a church and never have been saved. I'm so blessed and thankful for that. God has truly blessed me with a wonderful mother. She is one of the reason's I want to succeed. I want to make her happy and bring a smile to her face everyday. I'm always reminded of my mom and how she wants me to always love God before ANYTHING. She's always constantly reminding me of how I need to be an example of a Christian in this world. She has taught me to trust in God with everything and that, everything will be ok. She's right, everything has been ok. Even through great hardships, I still have a home, a car, a family, food on the table, and I have my faith in God. What more can I ask right? I've grown to appreciate the things I have around me. Okay, back to success part. There's this one business idea I have in mind that I want to really push for. Yes I would love to make lots of money but not for myself but to help people. I've always wanted to start my own organization to help families in need and to help the community and the people around. Every time I see sad people, it hurts me so much. I get so depressed because life's unfair. I wish everyone can just be happy. I wish that everything would be ok but its not. I want to become successful to bring a smile to those sad people and to help them appreciate their life. I want to help many families later in life. It hurts me to see people struggle and I get a strong conviction to do something every time. I pray each and every night before bed that God may bring me success and great wisdom in my life. I would love to have success but not success to live a worldly life of partying and just having fun, but to live my life giving back to others. Acts 20:35(ESV) "In all things I have shown you that by working hard in this way we must help the weak and remember the words of the Lord Jesus, how he himself said, it is more blessed to give than to receive." I found that verse to be so amazing. My goal is to study hard, work hard, and pray hard that God can use me somehow according to his plan and that I may be able to help people. Bill Gates, Warren Buffet and all those other worldly rich people are well off and wealthy but what have they done? With all that money, there are so many great things that can be done yet. I need to continue to pray, continue to love God more and more and grow stronger in faith. I'm weak still but growing. Thought I'm constantly in a war against the world, I know that I have God on my side. God will always be there in my life no matter what and his love never changes. I'm constantly reminded of the love that God has shown us through Jesus Christ, his son. I have so much to learn and I know my life will turn out great. Lets pray everyday and never forget that God answer's prayers. The time will come when one day, God will answer your prayers so never stop, never give up.

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18(ESV) Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you."

How You Doing?

How is everyone doing? How's life?

Happy

Its been a while since I last wrote in my blog. I forgot about this. Anyways, I've been great. I'm really happy, life's great. Starting spring semester this Tuesday. Hopefully I'll do well this semester. Study time no joke, I need a study buddy. Someone smart be my study buddy.

Be A Man

Sometimes, you have to take a risk in life. Do you wanna look back and think, maybe things would of turned out differently? All your life, you might question yourself, what would of happened if I did? Be a man, take a risk. Don't be afraid. Don't let fear stop you from what you really want to do. Fear is just another word that makes you a pansy. Man up, take a breath and do it. You have one life to live, make it your best. Live to the fullest, do what you feel is right. Don't let anyone stop you or tell you what to do. Its your life, its your move.

Success is my motivation. I'm going to get it.

Better Dayz

Better Days, Better Days, Got me thinkin bout better days.
I got my head up high, and my faith real strong.
Here praying for better days to come.

Shizz Happens.

I just hate how somethings aren't fair. I know its bad to complain but really cmon now seriously. Why the hell does some bs like this gotta happen. Somethings are just hella stupid. Now I gotta deal with some bs like this.

I like the weather. Its getting cooler and I'm liking it. Finally it ain't as hot as before so I'm pretty happy. School's fun. Church is amazing. Life's beautiful.


-JSP